rambling through life, one happy thought at a time

I’ve rewritten this paragraph I don’t know how many times now. I’ve had a long day—but productive. It’s spring, the time of new things & rebirth. I see it all around me in the flowers and the trees, the sunshine even seems different. 

So here’s what I’ve come to decisions about lately….

I turn 30 in October. Just a touch over 6 months away, I will be out of my twenties, and am supposed to be more responsible, more adult, more… something. I don’t quite know yet. I will be an auntie by then, and I will be entering a new decade of my life with my family being as it is. 

I’ve made some resolutions for this coming year, and I’ve started working on them before I turn 30. When I said a few months ago that I’ve been plotting and planning, I have… 

Now, as I have P.S. I Love You on in the background, I’ll let you in on some of my thoughts (in no particular order, of course)…

— I want to have more content than just showing pictures. Yes, pictures are good for memories, but I need some content in my life behind those photographs. Thanks @VinceMahtani for the inspiration..

— I want to be healthier.. physically, emotionally, spiritually… which brings me to these sub-points

• Physically: So, I’ve never been one much for diets. I am pretty wimpy to be quite honest. I don’t want to do something that makes me miserable (who really does though?!?). I suppose that’s why this diet that I’ve been on for a time is so strange to me. I began a month ago by quitting coffee & alcohol. OMG. I was drinking around four cups of coffee a day and would drink here and there with my friends (or a lot by myself if work was stressing me out). Then I quit eating for a week period. Well, not completely, but enough that I was only consuming 300 average calories a day. Not so healthy, I know. Like I said, I’m not much of one for dieting. I didn’t know how to do it properly. Enter help from my hippy aunt in Colorado, who introduced mom & I to the Standard Process purification process & diet. It’s more of a reboot of your system to help you form better eating habits. I’ve been sticking to the SP Purification Process for 14 days now (it’s a total of 21) & am down a little weight. 15 lbs to be exact. I’m not saying that I’m a pro at this, but I feel more confident about eating habits and what I should do rather than what I’ve been doing. So my goal for being physically healthy is to get to healthy weight ranges (let’s just say that I’ve got a little ways to go still) by proper dieting and exercise.
• Emotionally: I am still a mess at times, and while I have lovely friends that put up with my emotional outbursts and whatnot (thank you @AshleighBlevins for your patience and grace with me), I feel that I could/should find better outlets. Goodness knows, I don’t want to burden my friends. They have enough on their plates! I’ve been looking into getting counseling from a place called Karis House. I’m torn, at the moment, about it—but I’ll explain more about that later.
• Spiritually: Oh my goodness. Always an uphill battle it seems. I’ll just leave that at that though. 

— I am going to be an awesome aunt. I’ve made this decision. My sister and brother in law are expecting their first baby in July, and I’m going to be one of the ones celebrating & welcoming this baby into love. He’s going to know that he is cherished, and he’s going to hear stories upon stories about life and adventures. I’m going to kiss his fingers and toes, and try not to cry as I participate in diaper duty. I’m going to christen him in as a Cardinals fan (despite living in Dallas, he WILL BE a Cardinals fan), and teach him about superheroes & angels. I’ll teach him about his Uncle Jeff, who’ll be his guardian angel.. Project Awesome is going commence in T-minus 3 months.

— I am going to travel more. The gypsy in my blood is becoming complacent with being stationary. I need more spontaneity in trips, more trips in general. I shudder to think what gas prices will be in the coming months, but it makes me think that maybe I need to look into a better transportation system, rather than Super Grover, the Xterra. The call of the wild is reaching my ears, I can hear it on the breeze… and I don’t want the chains of petroleum to keep me in my place.

— I want to do more for my community. I’ve started looking up the process to joining the Bone Marrow Registry & am now just saving the money for the initial testing process. There’s got to be more than this life, and I want to share that with others—even if its to help extend their lives to realize it as well. 

— I’m conflicted about getting counseling at Karis House, because I am also interested in joining the Lay Counselor program they have. Its something that I have a huge passion for, and I feel like the training would prepare me for so many other things that I want to do in life… like join the counselors at IMAlive.org… it would be… amazing.

— I’ll be honest, I’ve got some other resolutions, but I think I’ll keep them to myself. Consider it personal censoring. I’ll pass them along, but for right now I’ve gotta work on them outside the virtual realm.

So I leave you with one of my favorite quotes from this movie that’s finished already… I think it applies here.. It’s one of my favorite quotes ever: “This is my one and only life, And its a great and terrible and short and endless thing, and none of us come out of it alive.”